Oh man. Went to Regina for a sax conference this weekend. Sooooooo cool. It was a bit sad because of the turnout. Weather made it so a lot of people never made it. but Ottis Murphy is like...the COOLEST guy. ( and the other dude other than Allen to make it to the Adolph Sax Competition final round from North America) he had an amazing sound, and was very friendly when we went to talk to him after his performance. everyone from school did a wiked job performing. Our Octet was a blast. I tried sushi and tortillini for the first time ever. Hottubbed/swimming every night, which has lead to a crazy lot of sneezing and headcold, it was a tiring weekend, but sooo good.

I have so much crap to do in the next little while. Two tape tests (crazy long too, damn skills and concert band), my lesson on thursday ( which should actually be pretty awesome) my piano lesson on friday ( which should be decent), I have my acoustics midterm on wednesday. butttttt no performances this week. Which is different from my crazy 2 a day that I've been pulling. I was suppose to do a recital sat night. but I was obviously not in the province, and I was suppose to be in a masterclass today, but I didn't sign up because I didn't thinl I'd get back in time. I think I'm probably going to phone a few old folks homes for some more performance experience. They love that stuff, plus it gives me another chance to not mess up my beethoven. It's a piece that apparently takes a lot of feeling and gut, not just technique and stuff. It's kinda cool.

This weekend was one of those times where I watched someone good play ( someone better than me in my opinion ) and I said "I need to play piece, because it's beautiful, but also because I'm sure I can play it better than they just did" I felt very egotistical and confident saying that, but I have a feeling that I  have the capabilities to become a good sax player. This is a new found confidence, and it came with my epiphany of breathing (haha). I actually feel like I've grown like a player a loooot, even if academically I've been sucking. damn 70 as a passing.

Man. This weekend made our studio become so much closer. Between the long car ride, and the hanging out all day (we were a small, loud, and apparently attractive posse) I wish we could have that much fun more often. Man. Alen decided to declare a "let's hold our break underwater" game, we all declined. Not against him anyways! sooo beat. He's fun because he's 5 sometimes. It's awesome. He's also the best teacher I've ever had.

some picys. darn. nevermind. I don't know where they saved to! Well when I find them, I'll put them up. Off to bed for the ever sick one!

-Sam

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So I'm starting to get a feel for the balance of things in my life (only took me a month!) my work schedual is pretty straight forward, so here's my basic schedual. If everything works out well, it's really good

Monday: Class from 8:30-10:30, then I practice untill recital hour, and then head home, and practice some more, and read my textbook on the bus home. I work from 4-7, and go ride, and then hang out with friends after riding usually. That or go home and practice/do homework.  

Tuesday: Class from 10:10-11, then I practice, go home, get car and bari, go back to school for quartet from 2:30-3:30, go ride tex, and get back to school for rehearsal from 7-9 and go hang out with Beth at Moxies ( Marguerita tuesdays!)

Wednesday: basically the same as monday except we have a quartet practice at 10:30, and then with working untill 9, and then riding after that.

Thursday: Class from 10:10-11, practice, have sax lesson at 1:30, then stupid concert band later on at 4:30-5:30, and then work from 6-9 and ride after that.

Friday: I have class 8:30,9:30, recital at 12:30-1:30, and go home and practice, and have a piano lesson at 5. then ride after that, and hang out with friends or practice

Saturday: work from 10-5, ride, and do whatever after that, and perhaps practice, or symphony.

Sunday: Work at Misty from 8-whenever we're done, with me going ot church at 11, and then college and careers at 7:30. Wootness.

So yeah that's my perfect schedual, where I practice both instruments everyday, ride almost everyday, and work a lot, plus go to class, and finish all my homework, and still see my friends. It's pretty intense. Doesn't always work out. When it does it's pretty awesome. I feel very well rounded some days. Plus whatever crazy rehearsals/sectionals we have. oh sigh.

anyways yeah. Had concert band rehearsal, sucked bum. I hate the way things are going. It feels so pointless, especially our thursday rehearsals. We're just playing stuff to get through it. He just repeats himself a lot. Courtneys right, the music has no...meaning.  It sucks.

I constantly feel behind in the sax, but it's starting to catch up a bit. We laughed a lot last lesson and taht was nice. I did some stupid stuff though. If I just get my study stuff down it should be fine. Piano is coming along ok. I have an exam in a few months. ew.

I'm scared for my rep test in history, and my essay. They're uber hard, but I have to do well on both.

Baby Harrington is coming soon, uber excited! Goign to a sax conference in Saskatoon in Feb! UBER pumped about that!!

yeah that's about it :)

I have to be in one of the WORST moods I've been in, in awhile. Excuse me whilst I swear. It's not even done being september and I'm already on the edge of a breakdown. I just came back from a USELESS USELESS USELESS REHEARSAL!!!! DR L IS USELESS SOMEDAYS...mostdays. We got notes and lectured on how to practice. please. how did we get into this faculty again? oh that's right by being able to play. I'm sorry but he treats us like we're 5. He has some motive to these extra rehearsals, and you know, it would be a lot easier to accomplish if he just told us what he was doing. because going to these rehearsals spending an hour playing out of a book we played out of in grade 9, and playing melody playback, and singing solfege (because we don't toally do that in basic skills) and spending so much time. just...WOW. what?! I don't mind my classes. I even sorta like theory. at the same time I hate it...it's theory, but still I like the teacher and I like how he teaches. It's very comprehendible for me. So far...now I've probably jinxed myself. Aahhhhhhhhh. Everythings soo soo stressful. You know there's this whole thing...being perfect? I'm not. I wish people didn't expect me to be. I'm a ditzy, forgetful slacker. No one can deal with this. I think somewhere deep down I'm a perfectionist, but really, I'm not perfect like my teacher, or my employer. I'm just not. I wish I was. I wish they'd give me a bit more slack. Rob treats me like I'm stupid some days when I'm not remembering everything he's ever told me, doing everything as he wishes it done. He's not a person who's meant to work with others. I feel like I'm stupid. Waiting to see what new mistake I've made. I'm barely getting my schedual under control. I have my first quartet rehearsal tommorow, I'm not ready. I'll never be ready. I feel like a  moron somedays. I just...don't get rhythm that well..that's just..how I am. I'm working on it. I haven't gone through a sax lesson where I haven't felt like crying, it's the point where today I said "I'm hopeless!" and he said "it seems that way right now" I can't help that I didn't get the concept I practiced everything, not much, but it was better than usual, and it's just...some concepts that he finds so easy, I don't get. I try and try and I don't get them. and he just...doesn't understand. I hate dissapointing him.

I'm too busy. I'm used to being too busy. but everythings planned out, and if it runs smoothly, everythings fine, but when other things start to factor in, things don't work out, and I just fall to pieces. I don't know how to put everything back together. Everythings my fault. and you know, sometimes my friends, as wonderful as some may be, some of them SUCK. and I hate doing all the leg work for some of my friendships, would it hurt them to phone me? I sure did all the driving and phoning all summer, and now when they're busy and I'm busier they can't just go and phone me. Wellll. Don't be surprised when our friendship crumbles.

Eugh. I'm just in SUCH a bad mood. I hate bad moods. I think I might just sleep till tommorow. I honestly can say I hate the world right now.

-Sam

Man, this is going to totally sound like Steve for a moment, but he's gone to the dark side anyways :P But AAAAHHHHHHHH I can't stand how people change when they get into a relationship. And they forget and DESTROY their past BEST friendships to people who are loyal and always there for them, and have been nothing but AWESOME friends. I've never seen so many people just forgotten about just becuase of a girl. OMG I know I've ranted about this a million times before, but MAN is it frustrating!

Yeah. I'm done